Generally, I'm not one to get actually upset at celebrity deaths. I'll be bummed, I'll feel empathy - but I won't cry.
This one did it, friends.
I'm genuinely upset and my inner child is left wounded. Kevin Conroy is likely the main reason I fell in love Batman; why I feel for this character, why he is so beloved by many in my generation and many more. He is the one who made Batman feel like a complete character in TV and film and gave him more depth than West and Keaton managed to do so. Conroy's depth of performance added invaluable emotional weight and nuance - and he did it and made it 'cool' long before Bale's Batman had began.
He has voiced this character and breathed life into this role for over 30 years - and between the animation, animated films, video games, and even on live action TV - this man nurtured this character, loved it, never felt resentful towards his ties to it, and embraced the fanbase that looked up to him as
THE Batman.
And for all of his work playing Batman in the tangible world - that body of work is dwarfed by countless times he's voiced the character in the heads of countless readers of Batman because, to many of us, when we read Batman - it's Conroy's voice and cadence that brings life to the art and writing. His presence spread onto the pages of the source material he so loved and was inspired by.
It should never be understated that for queer fans like me to know that the most fan beloved Batman was played by an openly gay actor - it was not only beautiful to have a Batman so definitive, but by a man who was our first gay icon. He was a hero to me not just because he was Batman, but because he reminded me that you can be queer
and a hero, too. In a time where queer characters were typically toxically villainous.
Lest we forget what his growth as a star did to legitimize and give respect to the underappreciated world of voice acting.
Kevin is so intrinsically embedded into all things Batman that he will never be separated from it, and we, the fans will ensure he never can be.
Myself and many other Batman fans haven't known a world of Batman to exist without him in it continuing to work, and the idea of him being absent going forward is as tragically inconceivable as a world without heroes, at all.
Kevin Conroy was the voice of my childhood.
Kevin Conroy was the Batman I followed into adulthood.
Kevin Conroy
was Batman.
And Batman died today.
I'm heartbroken.